When are you guys leaving? A question we’ve gotten asked quite a lot the last days. And a question we still can’t answer with certainty. We believe somewhere next week. We felt a bit down the last weeks as some of our original plans seem to not work. The bummer of wanting something but then realizing it just ain’t gonna happen brought us down but then taking our willpower back together and finding a way through and now we’re back on the horse. Continuously moving forward.
Our original plan was to leave end of May however luckily Hubbe has a close check on the weather report and it had been an exceptional year with loads of snow up in the mountains. That just didn’t want to melt away….and still doesn’t. The pictures we see from people living up there somehow freak me out a bit. People wading with backpacks through rivers lined with a meter of snow on the side. My and our hope is it will be gone by the time we get there. The closer we get to leaving the more it sinks in.
We’re going to do this and it feels crazy. We keep having these moments of OMG wow and OMG what the hell are we actually doing? At least I do 🙂 Hubbe seems to be more calm and excited where with me sometimes the thought of reality kicks and a longing for safety. A challenge at times for both of us and a good reminder to create backup plans and how we both can be safe out in the wild.
In the meanwhile while sitting a a kitchen table at our friends house we realized that 1300km is just about as long as the way we were driving down to Amsterdam last year. Remembering how long that felt in the three days we were doing it and knowing we’re gonna walk all of this now really made us stop in our breath for a second. There it was. That feeling of disbelieve, excitement, can we really do this?, will we do this? And then a small giggle and laugh: yes we are going to do this!
Until then there were some choices to make. In some way corona has helped us make one easier. NoBo (north bound) or SoBo (southbound)? NoBo it’s gonna as the boarder to Norway isn’t open yet and a large part of the northern trail would go through this beautiful country. Hubbe would have loved to walk the other way. With the sun shining in our faces but maybe that will be for another time. Until then we hope with time the boarders might open again so that we can finish the trip as planned in Treriksröset walking through beautiful Norwegian national park. Otherwise our trip might end earlier. For now we hope for the best and see what happens in 2 months from now.
Big boosters for our excitement were also the deliveries of our equipment that came in but by bit. Planning and research that finally seemed to manifest in real life and not just in our heads or excel files. Research into vegan and sustainable options and for food as well as material has occupied us for quite a while. Bringing up conversations between us that were not always easy. What is sustainable actually for us? What is ecological? My perfectionist mind had difficulty to cope with it at times because was it better to have a sleeping bag that is vegan but that supported the military? Lives of animals over lives of humans is what my mind made out of it. How can I choose? I don’t want neither and who am I to choose? It brought me into a mindset of frustration and feeling hopeless. Whatever choice I make it seems to not be ethical. Should we cancel the trip? Drama in my head 🙂 lucky to have full time vegan by my side who had a look into these questions before. I realized more and more it’s not about making the perfectly right choice. With a vegan sleeping bag at least we know there were no animals killed and as the producer is in Austria we believe labor was treated fairly. This is what we can control. After that feels it is out of our influence. It still isn’t the easiest choice I can feel, but to move forward in this project this was the choice we made. I didn’t want to pack up and stop the planning because we could not decide on a sleeping bag. Overall I let go more and more of my longing for perfection that has stopped me in my tracks and accept the fact it is an ongoing learning. The difficult conversations have brought me closer in my thinking of what is ethical, what is it that I want and that we want? Maybe next time we will choose differently but for now the research is done and time to test out.
And that we did. We took all our gear and went into our “backyard” called Tyresta national park and went for a day trip. Finally we were able to reap what we had seen the last weeks. A sneak peak towards what was to come. The weather was magnificent. Blue skies and summer warmth. The smell of pine trees and a soft forrest floor to dampen the stress on our sprained ankles. Yes rugby practice has take its toll on us while building up strength and stamina for the hike. But we didn’t shrink back but kept going slowly and we got thanked with a wonderful hike that keeps us longing for more. Hoping our 2 1/2 months will be similar to what we’ve captured in our first video. My perfectionist mind wants to work hours more on it but I remind myself. This is a page to try out. To allow to not be perfect and see how we grow in that. Thanks for being part of the journey and if you haven’t yet follow us on Instagram. We post more frequently and shorter updates there. Ciao for now.
and then I tried to post the video with all the pictures and the site won’t let me. So will figure that out and post it later 🙂